Monday, March 2, 2009
Sometimes I wake up and reflect on the true essence of freedom, which for me would be leaving my crackberry at home and logging off of this thing for a while. Just being alone with my own thoughts and ideas and focusing on further progression. I'm feeling pretty good, right now even tho' I have this immense feeling of my soul being tugged to cross over another threshold. I am where I'm supposed to be word to Combat Jack . I have been developing some new ideas while waiting for some old ones to come to fruition. Instead of just saying "hey I wanna start a business" , I have three clear ideas that I will be making tangible business plans in the very near future. I have more direction with the certification I'm seeking, on my go back for some higher learnings and I have a new routine for daily searchings for betterment. I think a lot of my problem is that I don't settle. I accomplish something and instead of sitting around reveling in the success, my mind is already focused on the next thing. Sometimes I feel bad just sitting back and relaxing because I feel like I'm wasting time that could be spent creating something else. I know, it's crazy, but it keeps my creative juices flowing. Even this blog, I feel is an accomplishment because of the fact that I'm only a few months in and have already garnered respect from my blog peers and people I have a huge amount of respect for in this blogging world. I was your regular average blog reader for the last 2 or 3 years and was comfortable just being that until I read something on a blog that made me say "I can do this and I need to do this as an outlet". I needed a place where I could collect my thoughts and even give folks a peek thru my eye slits. See now even just typing this little bit out has me feeling free and ready to continue with the rest of the week. I could pay a psychiatrist an obscene amount of money to sit on the couch or I could just spend some quiet time with self and blog it.
Also currently watching - Alfred Hitchcock's "Foreign Correspondent" and zoning out