I felt my reply to my homie Sun perfectly embodies how I feel on some real life, real thought, real time shit so let me copy paste here so you all can see and step inside my astral plane for 2 seconds.
-based on my last post about becoming more disillusioned with twitter the more followers I get. Not just twitter tho' Internets life in general.
yeah man, shit is getting a lil well alot tired to me.......I can only take so much "political" and fake shit, I really loved twitter when I had less than 200 followers, I think it was the realest. I look at some of the "realest" cats I know and they have like 130 followers and I reminisce on my days like that. It's all g. Still love the info but I'm really allergic to corniness and fake ass wanna be Z list celebs who act like they need to put they stunna shades on like they really on some shit. I enjoy my privacy fam. I lived a few lifetimes and I ain't bitter at all. I honestly wanna get to that level where I can just fall back from it all, and that may come sooner than later......I may just dip offline(and outside public radar for a few months and pop back up renewed.) People can't read me or understand me for shit. They be like don't you want this? and don't you want that? and don't you want fame? all this trash, not understanding that I had been a dude used to attention and being thoro since I was a lil kid. It's hard trying to explain to folks with that mindstate that my life from 91-95 was almost like being a legend in a lot of different ways, so I was used to alot of different things, girls, money, wilding out, shiiiiit now my peace comes from sitting in my backyard by myself looking at my dog run around my back yard. When I try to explain that type of thinking, it's hard to relate to. Especially to these cornball ass dudes who was never "Live" and are now just "networking" and "mixing" with folks trying to get a "name" so that hopefully they can get a degree of "fame" so that hopefully they can get "laid" and maybe start to feel good about being themselves, if only for a day, just yearning to feel some sort of self worth where they totally feel like "yes I am ME"
Yeah I've been maintaining my blizzzog in the spirit just not writing down things catching my eye. The hiatus comes from new daytime endeavors as well as work on the house. I realized how much information I've been soaking in on a daily basis that by the time I get tired I haven't read through half the open tabs on this lil mac book elite. That said don't feel any jealousy because my twittttering has gotten dry of late too. I dunno if I'm losing the fascination with it or what, but as I've been getting more and more followers I've been getting more and more detached with it. Honestly I love the information real-time flow and the new friends and acquaintances I've made over there as well as the fact that you're never alone at any moment of the day. The drawbacks are that you start following people you really don't want to and seeing some things from people you REALLY don't wanna see. Not beef, but real, real, crabness. I think the funniest thing is that people are amazed at how "real" I am or the fact that I'm myself online. It get's me to think like damn, what the fuck are all of you guys, online? your secret fantasy image of what you want to be? That shit annoys me slightly if I let it just for the fact that I start seeing the fake ass portrayals and don't be wanting to pull up skirts, so I'm like let me just chill and fall back a lil bit. Also some proposals and that "internet love" shit I don't need. Whether it be some chick trying to "kick it" or some cats who wanna try to enter your zone, I'm Straight with where I'm at. I don't have want or need for much, just my piece of mind.
That said here's some links I been digging up lately
One of my personal favorite mc's and a good friend/ally in the artform known as HipHop Culture, I first met Vordul in 2001. I was at the Rocksteady Summer performance in NY that summer and I solidified a lot of good relationships and mutual admirations. I met basically the whole NY underground that summer and Cannibal Ox was definitely at the forefront. I've been blessed to have created art with these cats as well as bond on other levels....... From the time I met Mega he was always blessed wit that raw skill and freestyle built from raw grit. This was before he was faced with the craziness which comes from success and elevating yourself. We all have our inner and personal demons to face, but some of our struggles are deeper. Mega is definitely a soldier I keep in my prayers and thoughts and wish the best for him as I do with all the fam on my team. My thoughts ran to that Summer and I figured this would be a good time to give him some shine. Peep the Painting and Scream Phoenix wit this 1.
Jobs is literally a magician with alien dna and he has most of us under the reign of the Apple. Get a lil deeper into the root with some not so well known facts about that dude behind the iphone you're gliding on.
A lifelong traveler, purveyor of all things flavorful,an open mind,good friend,lover and arch nemesis who has never conformed to fit in with the masses. I feel more comfortable away from the sheep. A true anti-social party animal who is probably the most cultured ignoramus you know.